So, when it comes to my pregnancies I really try not to complain about my current state (well, Mike may disagree...I do like to use it as an excuse for him to do things for me. For example, "Mike, can you get me some water from downstairs? I'm pregnant!"). I know that overall I am extremely blessed. I am pregnant for starters, everything is going well for baby Preston thus far (he's healthy and developing properly), and I am lucky enough to not have gotten really sick with any of my pregnancies...and by that I mean, I've never thrown up. So I may be pushing my luck to complain at all, but as I sit here at 5am typing this blog entry, I have just 2...and surely I am allowed that, right?!
First, my skin issues. Have any of you experienced the "pregnancy glow"? I, for one, haven't! This pregnancy, however, has definitely been the worst. From about 4 weeks on I felt like a teenager again, and now this dry weather has only made things worse! I don't like to wear makeup everyday, but honestly I don't have much of choice right now (hence my new compensation motto). Is it really necessary for us to be given another reason to not feel cute when we are already struggling?!
Secondly, and the reason I am up right now anyway...Pregnancy Induced Insomnia (self-diagnosed). I experienced this to a degree with each of the girls, but it has been out of control this time around! First of all, it started at the beginning of the pregnancy, which is entirely not fair! We all know by the end there is no comfortable way to sleep anyway and that people like to try and make you feel better by explaining, "It's just your body's way of preparing you for not getting sleep when the baby comes." Well, I think that is a bunch of bologna! I can assure you that the best way to prepare me for a baby keeping me up all night is by letting me get LOTS of sleep until that day arrives! What good does it do anyone to enter a state of perpetual exhaustedness by already being exhausted?! There have been a few instances where I can't fall asleep at night, despite my body and mind desperately wanting to, but more frequently I wake up (to go to the bathroom of course...another pregnancy perk) and then I can't fall back asleep. Sometimes this happens at 3am, sometimes at 5am and most commonly at 4am, as it did this morning. I get up and try to remain in as sleepy a state a possible, take care of business and climb back into bed as carefully as possible so as not to disturb Mike. Typically all seems to be progressing along at first. Then usually I need to switch the side I'm laying on (part of my problem is probably that I am a tummy sleeper when it isn't bulging out), which involves moving my body pillow and trying to keep all the blankets on me at the same time while not moving the bed too much...tricky. After giving that side a fair shot my mind begins to wander. I come up with all kinds of great ideas at this time because I cannot get my brain to be quiet! I have developed multiple plans and back-up plans for what to do with the bedroom situation when the baby comes (which we have not decided on by the way), meal ideas for the week, things I need to do in the morning-in order of importance, people to email, blogs to post, shows on the DVR I need to watch, etc. until I finally decide laying in bed is pointless and I may as well be productive if I'm going to be awake anyway...not to mention I am now suddenly hungry. This morning (it is now 6am) I have unloaded the dishwasher, switched the laundry, organized 2 kitchen drawers, enjoyed a ricecake sandwich with turkey and tomato (it was delish) and checked my email and blog updates (a big thank you to those of you who posted after 10:30pm central time last night for giving me something to read this morning). I am just now feeling tired again, which would be great, except the girls will now be up in about an hour and Mike will be teaching seminary, which means I'm in charge. Right now I'm thinking 3 kids is definitely enough!
(and please forgive any typos...I'm not operating on much sleep!)
(and thank you Mike for letting me sleep in until nearly 9am yesterday morning so I was at least well rested going into this mess!)
No more complaining from me now...promise!