I had planned some fun, cute pictures for today and maybe a video of the girls singing happy birthday to Uncle Mack, who is away in Kuwait right now with the army, but I can't bring myself to post anything happy.
Last night we got a call from Mike's parents that Brittany and Ili's sweet little 10 day old baby, Wyatt Thomas Yuan, had passed away. I can't think of anything other than what they must be going through and despite how it brings me to tears every time I think of it, I know I still have no idea, absolutely NO IDEA what that kind of hurt must feel like. My heart breaks for Brittany and Ili, such wonderful, loving people, such perfect parents for this perfect little boy. And to now be separated from him after just getting to meet him.
All night I just kept thinking about what on earth I could do to bring comfort to them or help them but nothing seemed to be enough. I have said so many prayers, enlisted the prayers of friends and family and their names have been put on temple prayer rolls, but still it seems like there should be something else I can do.
We had a busy day planned for which I was thankful, but then Addie threw up. She and Preston are both napping now and I just sit here and think and cry, and then think and cry some more for them. I kept looking at our children this morning and thinking of how much I love them and how I would feel if they were taken from me without warning and I don't know what I would do. I don't know what others could do for me that would make me feel better, because the only thing you want is to have your baby back in your arms and for now you can't and that just doesn't seem fair.
Brittany is amazing. I admire her strength and determination, her confidence in who she is and her ability to make others feel that same confidence about themselves. She is quirky and fun and true. She conquered unbelievable odds making a full recovery from a serious car accident, got her masters degree, and then found a perfect match in Ili. Ili is insanely intelligent, calm, driven, patient and quirky in his own way :-). Wyatt is lucky to have them as his parents and they are lucky to have him as part of their eternal family. I love them all.